Double Blow again

haiz... God, God, God!!
i think you are trying to let me know tt i need to work hard is it??
Had an ultra bad presentation just now!!

Felt like SHIT again!! Lost confidence again in studies again!
Maybe coming to nus IS an error all in all!!
Maybe the leasson that God trying to drive home is to teach me to handle my emotions!! i really dunno, once again emotion made me feel like puking.

The dissapointment in life seems greater then the joy!!
i dunno how will i score for this module!!!
Everyone puts in effort but yet in the end i think everyone is dissappointed on how it just turned out!! Haiz...

i dunno all over again!!
i'm lost all over again!!
Have i been depending too much on my results, but who is not affected by how their results turned out!! i just felt lost and loose moral all over again.
Exams are on in 3 days!! do i have time to complain... I guess not!!!

God, God have you forsaken me? Samson in the bible faces trouble like cheated by the philistine of his wife, and he killed a lot of philistine as a result. How can all tt i read be related to my life today?

Heartache, headache, lost all confidence!!
God is it time to surrender all!!