haha long time din blog le

well time is busy these 2 weeks! Have a project presentation dis week. quite an informal presentation to my supervisor on my 3001 project. Thank God that the lecturer is a kind person and din really comment much of our presentation being informal.

Well life goes on and exams are creeping nearer and nearer!! afaird i will flung the exams, like what happen to my fna test. i dunno how well can i perform but well it's always the stress there to perform..

i know i shd be putting focus on getting my facts right and leving the results to God! hahaha.. well i'm just a person VERY affected by results!

Will love to have some personal time off, to do shop window shopping and do something useful that will enrich my life! photoshop, graphic design, photography and song composition are some of the things tt i hope to explore into!

Undivided heart (Is what RJ needs)

Undivided Heart

Verse 1
If I'm to be whom You desire
All throughout my life
A vessel unto honor Lord to Thee

And before Your throne
To hear You say
That I have done my part
Lord, I need an undivided heart

Chorus
That I might know You
That I might serve You
That I might worship You as King
To see the Morning Star
To know how great You are

Verse 2
Lord, I need an undivided heart
If I'm to live in truth and love
To glorify Your name
If for a living sacrifice to be

And to share the joy
The grace and peace
Your Spirit does impart
Lord, I need an undivided heart

Ultimate Sianess

Suddenly i really dunno how to study anymore!!
Got 15/30 for my accounting paper!!

I out in so much effort to study for it!! Yet the results is like such..
The average standard is 22 points. WA LAO i feel like am i stupid or what??
Come to nus to study and all i get is just trash results!!

Maybe it's a wake up call for me ba!!
Time to work harder, more then what i put in then before...
I shall not blame God coz i know He has his devine purpose for tt to happen!!

But can't help feeling sianz....

Help me God!!! All i can ask of you!!

I like to move it move it!!

And indeed I had moved on!! Time to carry on in life, plenty of stuff to get busy with:

1st: My engineering project (ee3001 and Eg1415) FYI these are module codes!
2nd: Upcoming test (on 2 sats, 1/04 and 8/04)
3rd: My personal project (will be reading up the book of Eph in more detail)
4th: Mission trip (Will be starting to raise funds for the trip, need $3K)
5th: Worship planning for good friday!


These are the stuff tt will keep me busy for a very gd while!!
pray that I can be able to fulfill my position as a christian and also as a student!!

Timing will be tight but it seems like it's time to plug in to the power source(aka God) and depend on that to fuel me thru..

As for Miss K, after I had made painful decisions to delete her contacts from my hp and msn.. Things gotten better, much better I guess!!

something struck me during sermon yesterday, the feeling that I had all along, of not willing to let go and feeling sore is actually a SIN!!
It's like I'm constantly indulging in the sin and not able to get myself out. The fact that I know it's not gd to be keep dwelling on it but yet I just did that is a sin of not able to surrender to God! And being in the position of Sin and temptations!

Thank God for letting me know of that truth!!
Glory belongs to the Lord!!

Busy Dayz

had been quite some time that i din blog!!

having 2 test this week! God will be my strength to carry me thru!!

for the past 2 nights, i had been greatly blessed by 2 person!
First to Eric (gd frd of Eliz) and of Coz my "Da Jie" in Christ ELIZ!!!!

Eric encourages me to how to focus on studies and to find time to do more things within the same 24 hrs!! He create this method of MAXimum focus by the parables of the 3 servents that are given talents!

Eric:" the guy with 3 talents will think of how to get 3 more talents and of cos the guy with the 5 talents will thinkn of how to get the 5 talents. if he uses the same method as the 3 talent guy.. with 5 talents, he might get only 3 talents or worse.. no talents.

So God give each and every single one of us 24 talents a day out of whcih 8 talents are spent on resting so how are you going to spend the rest of your 16 talents? complaining abt how you only have 16 talents.. and you have no more talents liaoz?"

This statement that he make struck me. he then advice me to do small stuff
Eric: "Set yourself for success, else failure is always within reach.. and you'll give up easily."

To just read the bible in small steps, 5 mins a day, but full concentration, even for studies is also this way!!


As for Da jie Eliz, she just gave me encouragement and assurance that my walk with the Lord is not alone! It started with this.

Eliz:" everytime you feel lousy again, you pray, God..help me focus on you instead... You, the most beautiful being in the entire universe, who died for me... becos u see me as a priceless treasure... you wanted me so badly u threw your life away... "

Rj:"i know just tt ...."

Eliz:"Don't gimme "i know i know, but just that this, just that..." i don need to know your "just that"... remove your "just that" and "if", the roadblocks."

she then further encourage me:" His light will S H I N E into you, and overflood you with so much that you cannot help it but S H I N E OUTWARDLY TO THE NATIONS!!"

I really thank God for sending these 2 angels in my life and the method i got to know both of them!! simply fab and unbelievable..


btw the davinci code mag distribution is quite smooth for yesterday and today!

to end this off, add in my mission trip team photo,
Support will start now!! need to raise $3,000 for the trip!! So if god burdened your heart, support me in this trip!!

Tired + busy...

Tired + busy + not sure what is on during Lt = LOST!!
Just being tired these day, trying hard not to supress feelings!
Tired so i think the only cure - - - -> REST!!

even typing this i feel downsy!

It's thursday again!!

ok it's thursday again!!
sometime i really hate thursday to arrive, on thursday i'll see miss k ard in lectures for at least 4 hrs. we have 2 common lessons and each last 2 hours!

erm... i find it hard to concentrate whenever she is ard me! i'll just keep turning my head toward where she is sitting!! hahaha am i still affected by her?? i dunno!

Well things are hard... just need to let this feeling reside!!
In the end i think another 3-4 months more!! i think i'll start to forget her. But just hope as time goes by, we will reconcile!

ok lecture, i'm blogging in the midst of a lecture!
haha ok i'm bad!! ok i shall concentrate!

4 hr and a lab report

i spend 4 hours but still i cannot finsh part 1 of the lab report!!

haiz...
life is ok recently, a small esp happen yesterday, read yesterday blog to find out what happen.

The thing is that i felt affected but not emotional!!
i find just sad that we can be friends and why does things have to happen like that?

i saw miss k today at the crusade LM! We didn't talk. Although we appear to look ok on the outside but yet we are not tt much ok!

this time i dunno is it her not wanting to talk to me or is it i'm too rush to restore the friendship. But i think i shall stop doing anything for now ba!!
Since i have surrender tt to God let him handle it. i'll just take the back seat for now!! going to be a long and harsh month ahead!!

Please pray for me as HELL MONTH is coming!!
march will not be simple a lot of things to do, i guess i wun blog that often but will update it maybe once a week!! i hate HELL MONTH!! but tt's studies!! well pray that God will empower me!!

Footprints

School and me and myself

Haiz saw this from eliz multiply blog page!!
i also have this song..
i find the lyrics very true:

天亮当朋友~芮恩

Chrous
谁都没错
日子还是要过
无话可说
只是感觉真的都淡了
谁都没错
不一定有线索跟理由
到了这个时候
谁先不难过
谁先开口

芮恩同名专辑, 词:方文山,曲:林迈可

i was trying to msn to miss k! type a whole chunk not a single reply!
Man i felt boycott by her!! If she is busy just tell me.
In the end she went offline, without saying bye!
How come the friendship turn SO SOUR??
Rite now i just want to be normal friends with her!!
But once again, no reply,

Sms = no reply
MSN = no reply

Dunno why and what happen!
God i really have to surrender this to you!!
Maybe i shd stop trying to reconcile this friendship, it seems the more i try, the more she is turned off!!

well 日子还是要过 !!
when she don't reply 不一定有线索跟理由
slowly 感觉真的都淡了
but 谁都没错 but she 无话可说 to me
到了这个时候 will she 开口??

haiz.. not really emotional, more sad and disappointed!!
Why do we have to turn out this way??
haiz.... only God with time will help both of us!!

NAH GOD this mess, i really dunno what to do, can you tell me?